15 November 2009

Concentration

I think that I need to get away.

Not because of anyone, or anything, just I feel I've taken enough...
I'm not sure, how to put it, but i need to get back in touch with
LIFE.

I need to lose myself in life, have fun.
Maybe take up hedonism for a while?!

Or maybe not?

HA!

Hedonism is a funny concept.

–noun





-the doctrine that pleasure or happiness is the highest good.





-devotion to pleasure as a way of life: The later Roman emperors were notorious for their hedonism.


Pleasure as a way of life.



In some ways this seems ideal, but then again, I might lose my touch with reality.
And Hedonism mainly revolves around massive orgy's.
Yeah not really my thing.


but anyways.

I can't wait for 2010.



I'm going to have a whole new focus.

The action will kick in.

I'll have a plan.
I have a plan!


I think every now and then i lose myself.

Just for a while, but something detaches me from reality.

And once again i'm lost in a balance of the time continuum where life meets death and the past and the future run parallel to each other.

Not so easy to get your head around!?

Yeha me either.

But the end of this year will be me wrapping this chapter of my life up.

I'm 17 now.



should i be more grown up?





'i'm a big kid like benjamin button'
-JME


I guess i can never do that.

But I'll be more focused.

Sure, life's not easy, that's why its so fun.





So from me to you.






2010.





my year.




10 November 2009

DayDreaming

So here's the dream.

BIG.

That's basically it.

Bigger is better.



Unless its your cell mate.



So I'm thinking, I've finally come to a solid decision on what i would like to do with my life.
It's taken a while, and i basically always wanted to do this, just I couldn't express it.
Now I can.





Create art for people.
Art that's personal, has meaning and is exquisitely beautiful in my eyes.
Art that shows the story of their life.
Art that never leaves them

I want to be a tattoo artist.




And no this isn't a fad.
It isn't a 'cool' thing to do.



I'm passionate about this.

And that rarely happens.



What is more beautiful than being able to share your life through pictures.

Isn't that what life's about now?!

We have computers.

We have digital photos.


We have facebook.


What happens when these fade, crash or are no longer the 'cool' thing to be on.


Just like Myspace, adopting foreign kids and Don kings hairstyle?




They'll be lost.
forever.


So why not keep it with you, in something that will never fade, or be lost.

I'd like to bring this joy to people, and the generations to come.

I'd like to paint someones imagination on their body.




I'd like to give someone the oppurtunity, nobody ever gave me.






So don't come to me and tell me your going to be a model.
Don't come to me and tell me your going to be a musician.
Don't come to me and tell me your going to be an actor.

Unless you
really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really
know that you are set on this.

Even if you don't end up doing it.

Be passionate about it for the moment.
Know that its what you want to do now.
And push your hardest for it.


Whatever it may be.
Don't let anyone tell you that you are wasting another talent.

Because your talent will be your determination.







My City

I love it. You do to.


if there's one thing that brings you a thrill every time you are to step outside and breathe in the muggy air that fills your lungs and makes you choke.

Walk down the street and walk past a person that's wearing a business suit.
Then past a person that is covered in tattoos.
Then past a person that is riding a bike.
Then past a person that's driving a range rover.

Look at the skyline and make you smile.

Can't see the bottom of the street for all the peopel busy with there day to day business.

It's the city.

But not just any city.



My city.




LDN-CITY BABY




that's one thing that makes me.


Where I'm from.




So in life, I guess we start out with so many options.

What career?
What family?
Who we marry?
Who we hate?
Where we live?




But we end up havign to chose only 1 of each.


But what happens if I want more than one?
I don't want to chop down my options.



Can't I have everything?




My mommy said I could be whoever and whatever I wanted to be.
So why do I have to choose?
and so early.


I've not decided what i want to be or even who.





But all i know is that i want to be as great as my city.

I want to make someone feel that thrill.

I want to make someone proud of who I am.


love.





4 November 2009

Expectations.

'Expect nothing so you can never be disappointed'

HA!

Sometimes I cannot stress this enough.

I didn't realise how much a role model influenced your life;
in both a positive and negative way.
I've outdone the role models that I look up to the most.
Then I realise that I couldn't have looked up to them that much.


I can't name one thing that will stay with me forever,
or that they gave me, or name one thing they did, that I wish was me.


When you have no role mode, you start to falter, it might be ever so slightly, but we all do.

We start to believe all of the doubts inside ourselves.

Then we fight agaisnt them for a while.

Then we believe again.


It's liek a surfer.

Swim out.
confident.
Catch a wave.
Rebelling against the nature.
Wave engulfs you.


I lost my strength to fight for a while.


How do you look up to someone that doesn't look up to themselves?


4 Rules to being soembody's role model;


1. Love you
2. Love what you do
3. Love them
4.No matter how hard it is, project only positive light and love onto them.




At the end of the day, you're the standard setter for that person.

Pressure. HA! doesn't even come into it.

Pressure is something that we live with.

Pressure is what drives me.




But as for my role models.





My role models are you.




If anyone shows me right and wrong in each day.
It's you.

You make me laugh without trying.

When you cry I cry with you.

When you love i love with you.

When you succeed I succeed with you.

Together we cannot fail.
So thankyou.





This is my family, as unconventional as we are, we work better than any other 2.4 children family.!